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Offline ProcrastinationQueen

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My Absence
« on: 2010, February 20, 04:10:11 am »
Hi, I know I kinda appeared for a bit and then disappeared.  Sadly it's not unusual for me to do that.  Well, just LOOK at my screen name.  ;D

I keep saying I'll go to the meetups, then never show.  

That's a horrible habit of mine, I won't deny it.  I do it with the UAA anime club/Senshi-Con meets as well.  I have nothing against you guys... I love ya...especially you Oni, even though you don't remember me.  XD  

Haha.

There's several reasons I haven't shown.

It's a mix of laziness, social anxiety, panic attacks & health problems (I'm diabetic w/ depression), and Friday randomly sneaking up on me.

Last night, for example, I honestly had planned on going.  I went with to take my blind aunt to the airport.  Her plane left at 7, so I thought I'd leave the airport around 6:30 and be able to make it to the meeting.  However, I was not counting on the fact that she's BLIND so we needed to stay and help her onto the plane.  We left the airport really late and at that point I just wanted to have dinner and do my own stuff/go home.

One of the other Fridays we found out that one of my bf's friends died.  She wasn't a super close friend, but a good enough friend anyways.  We ended up going out to dinner in memory of her, talking about the whole thing.

Other times it's when my family wants to do stuff or I get in a fight with someone and don't feel like going. 

It's always something random like that.  I won't deny that I'm lazy, but Fridays are also just the worst/most random for me, Idk why.

ANYWAYS.  Sorry if I've disappointed anyone.  I'm really sorry.  I promise I will make to the meetups one of these days, but I won't say when.  If I do, it probably won't happen.  ;D

Also, you can still talk to me.  I still check my messages (when I know I have any, LOL) and my msn is: kisa_san88@hotmail.com ...I rarely log in, but whatevuh.

My Apologies once again,
<3,
Colleen
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Re: My Absence
« Reply #1 on: 2010, February 20, 02:34:18 pm »
*hugs* hope to see you when you can make it, and hope things go better for you.
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Re: My Absence
« Reply #2 on: 2010, March 03, 11:52:36 am »
So if igot this right we gotta bug u alot. LOL we do miss you Hun and hope things are going better for u
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Re: My Absence
« Reply #3 on: 2010, March 11, 05:50:38 am »
As for me, I have been cooping myself up in my room a lot. I have been being too depressed to do anything. Lost another couple family members. What is this world coming to? Lost a cousin and an uncle recently (on top of 2 uncles and a cousin a few weeks back). I really need to pull myself together. I will try to make it too any meets I can, I really should socialize to get that all out of my mind.
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Re: My Absence
« Reply #4 on: 2010, March 11, 07:22:20 am »
*hugs* we are here if you ned us.
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Re: My Absence
« Reply #5 on: 2010, March 11, 03:21:33 pm »
*hugs back, crying in shoulder a bit* You ever leave someone thinking you will see them again? Forgetting to tell them "I love you" or "You are a great friend" and than like getting news they are deceased? It really takes a tole on ya. The bad thing is I don't let it out right away, I just lock myself away from the world basically pretending it didn't happen. Only, coming out later to find out I can't hide from it anymore and I am always in an emotional fit. It really tears me up on the inside because they were who I looked up to, I was never able to look up to my mother in bad times (if you wanna hear that part of my story message me). Well, yeah, I just gotta learn to deal with losing loved ones who actually looked after me at least a bit.
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Re: My Absence
« Reply #6 on: 2010, March 11, 10:58:33 pm »
The best advice I can give you on matters like this is that is that most of the things that we want to tell people before they pass are things that they already know and hold dear to their heart, especially if its someone that you're close to. Just because you weren't able to say something to someone doesn't mean that they didn't know it to begin with, basically - for me, that's comforting to know. Especially in situations like yours.

That being said, I'm sorry to hear about your loss(es). You have many shoulders to lean on here in case they're needed! :)
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Re: My Absence
« Reply #7 on: 2010, March 12, 07:58:04 am »
Keph you took the words right out of my mouth.
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Re: My Absence
« Reply #8 on: 2010, March 12, 05:42:31 pm »
Thank you guys. I know I can turn to you guys for help. You guys have always been there for me. I am looking forward to seeing you guys soon. I love you all.
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Re: My Absence
« Reply #9 on: 2010, March 16, 08:59:04 pm »
You both have been missed, and I understand. I anticipate seeing you both at the meets again, I do enjoy your company. I hope you both find life less chaotic here in the near future and as stated by Keph and Oni Shoulder and friendship here for you as well.

Please stop hiding in your dorm room man, I would rather you be sad and depressed and with friends than alone in your room.
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