damn it all

[foxguardian]

a few years ago i had made a pounced account (furry dating) in hopes of finding at least some friends (never happened) and diddnt think to cover my tracks my parents would never find it right? there completely computer illiterate.
now my dad had always made comments about how screwed up "disease spreading faggets" were and all that so i knew i could never tell him.
and my mom was pretty religious so that wouldnt fly
so back to the story so i make this account and hope with all i am that at least a friend would message me.
a few hours pass and im at a friends house chillin and my dad calls my phone and the first thing out of his mouth is "so how long have you been gay faggot" and my phone dies. awesome.

so im freeking out and take a moment to collect my self befor heading in to use a house phone and i call him laughing it off     "oh ya hah my ex made that lol it says on there i like fat chicks with small dicks haha ehem" ya so i lied it off and ya he gets it so i go home and he watches as i delete it and all that then puts a 44 magnum to the side of my head and pulls the hammer back

all i can think is f*** ... hes gonna do it im going to have to kill him ... and just when im about to knock his arm to the side he puts the gun to his side grabs my hand puts the gun in my hand and puts the barrel to his head

"now son" he says pulling out a 357magnum and puts the barrel to my head "i want to know the truth" pulls the hammer back "are you gay... if you are you had better god-damn shoot me first. pointing the gun up a little i put the hammer down
"dude im fuckin straight man" i said calmly and moved in to hugg him just hoping he wont kill me.
ya we had a good cry together and got drunk smoked some weed
sence then i have been caught looking at  (censored),  gay furry porn, straight furry porn
and i wait to kill him first

i can just hope having grand kids from other family will deter him from persuing his promisis to my demise

[foxguardian]

i dont care about spelling and grammer f*** it this is me


my dads an old biker was vice pres of the hells angels when he was in his 20s and had me in his 40s hes had a 5 wives and 2 have tried to kill him
my moms a biker chick and tried to kill me in the womb with liqure acid mushrooms methidones and all that wonderfull stuff
so befor you judge me think about how i grew up

i was born in tuscon  AZ and my parrents faught over me quite a bit i got stollen a few times by both parties and lived my infint life on the street with my father and in and out of dope houses with my mother
my father stole me and took me to iowa with his women who he saved from a life of crystal meth
i grew up in iowa pretty well lived in a sweet house goung to a small school but the teachers diddnt like me cause of my manic ADD and demanded i was medicated

so now i suffer from hatfull kids and manic depression (from meds) living in iowa tell i was 8 then we sold every thing and drove to alaska living in a plywood box on a 20ft car trailer for a few weeks tell it collapsed in canada
so we lived in the truck tell anchorage were we got a trailer with a hatefully abusive friend of my dadas were i went to a big elementary school and was again hated by all the kids cause i was small and always depressed (they upped the meds) so now i CANT controll my self when im off my meds it is soo bad
and in this school i had my first sexuall experiance were i met a nice girl and she was beautifull she showed me a porn mag her brother found (i had seen porn befor thanks dad)
but still a girl showed me her porn awsome. the next day out of no were my mom flips sh** takes everything and leaves.

so we go and live in a new house in a differant town a few hours away and its pretty big and i have no clue how we got it but my mom comes back oh youre a meth addict so its ok you can come home cool  (love you mom)

so now im about ohhhhh 12 and im going to a small school were damn they up the meds with teachers demand and guess what all the kids fuckin hate me that's  cool what ever i like the woods

ao were livin it up and i met a nabor kid hes pretty fuckin cool he lives right across the street and he has no friends ... donno why...  but yay i has a friend

and he asks me one night on a sleep pver if we could "play" ya he wants to make love to me and my dumb ass gets scared and turns him down cause i am scared of getting into trouble cause oh i already know my dad hates gays and i way already know everything about sex

im always with him and i love him but ill never tell .... damn
years go by and we end up moving to a town a few minuts away and im in 6th grade same sh** differant school  every one hates me no frineds more meds but i do have one thing ... the woods acers of it wild woods with bears and all and that becomes my home

7th grade i get into soccer and im not too bad at it  and ive got a couple friends now and they have friends but most dont like me and always talk sh**
im always getting into fights now and not once have i thrown a punch not once
half way threw the year some one cuts up all my soccer gear and trashes both my lockers and i know who it is
storming out of the locker room im heading straight for the field and theres a game going i dont care i run straight out on the field tackel the 6ft tall fucker to the ground and beet the face off him

i quit soccer
i quit trying
i quit



over the summeri quit taking my meds living my life normally now i have a few outbreakes of add no controll and i can tell i can feal it but i cant controll
one day im on the chill sitting in my woods when i here a friend commin though and run to meet him
hes smokin weed sweet i know what it is and what it does just never tried it sure man let me take a hit
my life changed

i have never had a loss of controll never felt down no depression other than emotional defeet from time to time nothing outo of ordinary
im smokin a bit here and ther while im chillin with friends oh and ya i got more friends because i smoke with them... that's  about it

8th grade more friends more enemies more fighting and i never once threw a punch 
and it got worse threwout the year no one only a few kids got it as bad as me but they werent like me they were wierd ya know just differant
one thing was definate and that was that i would have to get my grades up man so i got in the speciall ed class for violent tendancies and i was labeled a sexuall deviant because i told the principal to suck my dick ... she pissed me off
she lost her job too


summer of none stop fun and makin money sellin weed it was awsome sh** man we grew it in the trees
too easy
9th grade
man i was doin ok i was holding Ds and Cs
not alot of fighting
i had a class of 25 and 2 friends awsome
from then up it was all me i had great grades and became friends with anyone who cared to asociate with me
i never faught never had to and once i graduated i had ome to find out all of those kids who hated me here furries and i remember a few getting into truble for bestiality which i had gotten into the porn at 9th grade bestaility that is
sinor year i had found something differant though furries
im not into bestiality im a fur
and kept it that way for a while
now what ever but icp has shown me the way
and if i hear your messin with ppls lives or hurting animals for any reason )that includes sexuall pleasure ) ill fuckin cut you up but you in a drum and put you in the inlet
havent been caught yet....

ya animals can say no it is obviouse and if you are forcing or training your animal and it is wrong i do kill and i will find you


i dont care about spelling and grammer f*** it this is me
i am now a proud hatchet warrior
and am very able i have a great career and wouldnt risk it for anything not even pot ... well the ocational child rapest might get his or her neck cut but hey

[Oni]

Aside from your spelling you forgot to mention something


You did find good friends from Pounced. ... Two of them. Fox and I.

Now your ramble and story is very chilling and disturbing to tell the truth. My words of encouragement are this:

 - Get away from that family as it is not conducive to a good life by your own admittance.
 - Find Friends that will always be there for you and join there family
 - Always be who you are.
 - Tell others that call you less to "F*** Off"

[foxguardian]

i have been friends with you two for years and am so happy to have you as my friend. i could never have made it to this point after all that i have been through.
alot of the times you diddnt even know it but the little things you would say and do made all of the differance to me. sometimes i feal it was you who kept me from thoughts and fealings i dare not mention for fear of fealing them, the mear recolection causes a chill to spread throughout my body and tears fill my eyes. i love you cat and fox even if you live in anchorage lol

thank you for the peace in my mind and thank you for the warmth in my heart to know, i do have friends and always will.
now if only you were closer so i wasnt so bord lol sorry bad joke but seriously nikiski sucks

much love and lotsa hugs from your collie friend *wags tail and hugs my lap top*

[Oni]

as always my dear Collie.


We are glad to be of Service.

[Raven Nova]

it seems like you've been through a lot and im glad you've been friends with oni cat for a long long time..  *giggles softly, pouncing on oni* oni sexy pants your awesome! and oni's sexy collie... your awesome...just letting you know that even though you don't know me *smiles, my tail wagging from side to side*

[Oni]

* Oni sits confused

I have sexy pants?

[Ekim]

* Oni sits confused

I have sexy pants?

Only under black lights...

[Oni]

Na then they glow

[Ekim]

Na then they glow

In patches ... I am sure Fox knows what I am talking about 

[Oni]

That would be Fox's Pants.

[Ekim]

And since your in them all the time ... 

[Raven Nova]

That would be Fox's Pants.

And since your in them all the time ... 

i've got to wonder how we got onto the topic of sex and/or something related to sex... O.o im so confused

[Ekim]

... sexy pants  ...

This is about the spot things started to go awry ...

[Raven Nova]

... sexy pants  ...

This is about the spot things started to go awry ...

ahh well....i call everyone sexy pants...that's  how it is with me even if its a hobo (yes i talk with strangers, no i dont take candy from strangers). lik i told oni yesterday, i just call everyone sexy pants.